Lol.

So it's been FOREVER, but oh WOW can I tell you that so much has happened. I've got about ten minutes to write, which is not nearly enough. June went by, July went by even faster (with drama and unwanted shit that we're going to leave in the past), and August brought with it revelations, a surprise vacation to Colorado (Vail and Denver) to relax and then see Green Day and Franz Ferdinand(!!!! RIGHT?! MOST FAVORITE BAND EVAAARRR). September brought super happiness, my birthday, and a nice slap in the face courtesy of the 18 credit hours I am taking in school XDDD. Death by classes much? You have no idea.

Finally we get to October, which is just going by awesomely, and this weekend is Saboten-Con in Phoenix which I am so happily attending. I am hardcore enough to ensure that I get at least one proper vacation a year, but I wouldn't count a single one this year. Thus, I make various small ones :] This must be incredibly jumbled eh?? I know, I sorry. But suffice it to say that my brain really does want to explode thanks to homework.

:( For now, I must work. That is a rough chaotic update into my life XD but it's all true. So :P. 

xxoo
 

Ahhh man.

It's been busy the last week and a half to two weeks. It's nice, because this way, I am not bored, or if I am bored, it's not the bad kind. I've seen Transformers twice, walked at night til I got blisters, been out til 4 AM, drank delicious and horrible coffee at all-night food establishments, and discovered an amateur Astronomer's Society here in town. And of course there was the wedding, traveling to El Paso almost every day (oh how I love to drive, especially alone), and planning (EEP!) the trip to Austin in August, and to Phoenix for Saboten Con in October/November.

And of course the silly girlie giddiness from a very ridiculous attraction to a certain boy. Which puts a nice glimmer on things, and makes songs that much more relevant and exciting.

Sims 3 is also amazing! O_O I have been playing it TONS. My first sim was extremely promiscuous, has two children, married twice, and a semi-successful music career. Funny, it's like a true celebrity life... XD My second one is much better, I built a way bad ass house, and she's on her way to becoming an international super spy. I think I have a couple of promotions left before that, but I've got plenty of time.

My apologies to those of you that this is like ramblings that make no sense whatsoever, it's kinda what comes to mind and gets typed.

On the plus side, I bought a proper journal, it's a red Paul Frank creation with Julius the monkey on the front. Tres tres cute, and convenient. I have a proper address book now too...as my semester to Japan gets closer I'll make a post, and if you want a postcard/letter/something random from there, I'll see about making that happen :)

Err so yes. No Warped Tour for me this year, good bands but I am not up for spending lots of money and getting a sunburn and heat stroke. What will I do instead, you ask? Probably.......swim :) I got my activities pass from the university today, it was $40 T__T But that's much cheaper than any gym, AND I get the activities center plus natatorium. So it's alright. Bex and I are going, today was our first day, and we are smoothie chef extraordinaires, so we are energized afterward.

Alright....I'm away laughing on a fast camel ;)


xxoo

-cue spazzy dancing-

Today is my friend Caitie's wedding!

I know, you're all thinking, but ADR, you are only 19! Why yes, but she is...23? or 24 now. So really, it's ok :)

I thought I would make a semi-shout out though, because she was the most fantastic friend a person could ever hope to have when I was a freshman in high school, and she a senior. Pretty much, she took care of me, and that was amazing.

:) So congrats Caitie! I hope your day is fabulous!


xxoo

Just one thing:

Not anymore.

On another note, I got My Japanese Coach yesterday. YAY for being able to practice my characters on something that isn't killing notebooks of paper, and that says the character in a bright voice.

And on another note, I need a new bookshelf desperately badly.



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Oh my mind.

Sometimes I wonder why I am almost always busy, or at least with something to do. The slow beginning to this summer has reminded me why.

My mind wanders to places it should not go, or to places that will only make me unhappy. Like this ridiculous need, not desire, to travel. I was thinking about it on my drive home from the coffeehouse, that it has been happening more often lately since the semester has been over. What does it mean? I am happy, or at the very least satisfied, with what I have here, with what I am doing, and with what I am attempting to do (astronomy minor for a business major, anyone?). Part of me feels that I trying too much, that I can't achieve it. Another bigger part of me squishes that part down, tells it to shut the hell up, and asks me why I am not doing more. I feel like I am wasting my brain with just a business degree, so I've decided to persue the astronomy minor. Which means 3 calculus classes (yay for differential equations) and physics. Fine by me! I need to exercise my brain in science.

But yes.

I don't get it. I have a home...but sometimes it doesn't feel that way. Maybe because I don't feel tied down here, I have my family and friends but I feel that I could live elsewhere and be happy too. Why does my brain tease me with such thinking? GAH.

The study abroad to Japan in January is looking better everyday.

Is it bad that I already want school to start? I'm bored. I need to be bored though, who knows when I will have this kind of freedom again, if not ever, until I retire.

Scary thought.



I don't want to grow up. "Being grown up isn't nearly half as fun as growing up."

But everyone else has done it right? Guess that means I will too. Maybe I just need to stop questioning every single damn thing.


xxoo

"This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time."

This song has always had a soft spot in my heart. I am not heartbroken (quite the opposite at the moment actually) but this song is so beautiful. So yes that is all XD

Anyways!

My puppy (or poopy as I call him sometimes) is doing fantastic, that guy is quite the interesting one. I have never had a puppy before, so it's a wonder how very clumsy they are. High entertaining, but endearing too.

I am currently re-reading Pride & Prejudice (I honestly don't know how many times I have read it. A lot, I know that much). It's the copy I bought in London when I was there last summer. I was going to try and keep it nice, but it's getting rather beat up from being carried everywhere (I almost always have a book on me). But yes. Summer is going nicely, I have not done a damn thing. Work here and there, other little things here and there, but that's it. I am trying to be as lazy as possible, because I do not think I will get another summer break like this (or a break period, before I start my real job/graduate school). Ah. Sometimes I wonder why I do this to myself, but really, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Hokay that is it for now... I am going to start drawing hardcore again, but first I am going to practice figures and anatomical correctness, cos I need it!

xxoo

PS I made the Dean's List again :D Two semesters and counting!

So I finally have a moment to breathe after the hectic schedule my life has taken. Sometimes I think, "wow, I am boring, I don't do anything." Ohh what a big lie that is! I have far too much to do. My German paper/project is a totally success. Ten pages completely in good German :] I feel like a winner! And I have some bragging rights since it took me FOREVER. Interestingly enough, no one else had papers to hand out (I inserted quotations and a poem). My research was on the White Rose, a student resistance movement in Germany during the Nazi Regime. One can only hope that they could be that brave in such dire circumstances. But yeah. My Powerpoint was very nice too :] Aesthetically pleasing.

I've got work soon, in about 40 minutes. It's been a ridiculously long day, and I've still got stat homework to do once I get home from work. I'm running on about three, three and a half hours of sleep at the moment, so I am alert, but slowly being drained totally. I might have to get coffee before work; thankfully, there's a Starbucks nearby. Cos no one wants Mickey Disease coffee!

Alright time to go lay down for two seconds before I have to get ready. Hope everyone is doing well. 2 more weeks of school and finals. I want summer NOW!

xxoo

Several questions I have been pondering the last few days:

1. Why is it that there are so many damn stupid people in the world?
2. How is it that he can tell me he's missed me all day and it gives me butterflies?
3. Why was Easter not always celebrated on Sundays? I heard this somewhere but I didn't catch the answer.
4. Why why WHY?!


That is all. kthxbai.


xxoo

ZOMG! It's mah PUPPYYY!!

His name is Raleigh :] Pronounced "ri-lee". He is a Cocker Spaniel/Siberian Husky mix (known as Siberian Spaniels) and is the coolest thing in the world. He comes home with me in a week :] :] :]


xxoo

Dawn is my favorite time of the day. Yes, I know it's afternoon now, but I think I'm going to stay up late tonight to see the sun rise. I love the quiet hours leading up to it. The whole world is asleep, and everything is peaceful.


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"The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are."

--"The Hero Dies In This One" by the Ataris

ATTENTION: I am making the ADR Brigade. I don't know what it entails, but it shall be amazing. That's all :]

Anyways! In life news: The end of the semester looms ever closer, and it both excites me and freaks me out. I have so much left to do that I don't know where to begin, and a severe lack of sleep is bringing me down. I've got a stat exam on Thursday, and the absolute lowest that I can get on it to keep my B is a 74%. However, I have been told that I will get an A, so we'll see!

My other classes are going alright; I just want to finish with them. Registration for smarty-pants like me was today, and I am officially at 18 hours. I'll have Japanese, Epistemology, Marketing, BCIS, Business Law, and Human Communications (which I'm taking in the honors college. I am determined to graduate with honors). Sounds pretty good! However, this also means that I will be potentially burned out by the time I go to Japan. This might be good, since I'll be more excited to go, but at the same time I don't want to be dead when I'm in a country that I've wanted to visit since I was 7. Still--that's 8 months away. I'll focus on passing for now, and hopefully I can be as lazy as possible next semester.

In other news, I don't know what to do about certain aspects of my life. It's starting to piss me off, and make me seriously pessimistic, that any guy that I am attracted to has something that prevents anything ever happening. Sadly, I tend to meet people that somehow or another end up living far away. Sometimes the distance is reasonable, but this time it's really bothering me. Part of me says that it doesn't matter, but another part of me says to stop being unrealistic and move on. This is also the part of me with the drive and ambition to get somewhere in life. But does that mean I'll be sacrificing happiness along the way?

I just don't know.

I can't say that I won't be happy though--I always have something to smile about. I think I read too much sometimes. Books give me ideas. And slow music makes me think.

I think I shall go for a walk.


xxoo

Another Spring Break come and gone.

I wish it had lasted longer, or that I had been more productive. I feel slightly rested, but not enough to know that I won't burn out by the end of the year. One more month of class( maybe an extra week I'm forgetting, since we're not totally done with March), plus a week of finals. Shit! That means I have very little time to semi-master the crap that I don't want to know. Like what, you might ask? Statistics. I hate it. I suck at it. And I NEVER ever want to see it again once I'm done. Thankfully, I shouldn't have to deal with it too much :)

Anyways.

Let's see...Tuesday I went and saw Slumdog Millionaire (AMAZING, go see it if you haven't), Wednesday I was lazy all day, Thursday I was lazy all day, and Friday I went to lunch with my mom, younger brother & his girlfriend at Chili's. Their queso dip will be the death of me, I know it. However, in my continued attempt to eat healthier, I got their chicken Caesar salad, which was pretty delicious :) Then we went to see Monsters vs Aliens but it was sold out, and we couldn't go to a later time cos I had work at 5.30. But I did get to go see it after I got off work yesterday, so that was pretty excellent =D Another good movie! With semi-hidden references that you can find if you're listening. And lastly today. More work, but a short shift. I came home and tried to do stat homework, but I'm completely lost as so what I am supposed to be doing. Fortunately it's due Tuesday, so I can go get help tomorrow XD

I did a lot of reading and rereading of some of my other books--alas, I am still broke and can't afford new ones. But I get paid on Friday...so that may be where my paycheck goes AGAIN. Silly I know, but to me the order of importance is more-or-less books (along with coffee and tea to accompany the reading), clothes/accessories/purses/, video games, music, everything else. I am the book provider to my friends.

XD

I had been in a semi-sad mood for no reason, so I had decided to go rent a movie. I got pissed off at how expensive they were to rent; I had debating getting The Forbidden Kingdom and the first 10 or so episodes of Neon Genesis Evangelion, but that would have cost me upwards of $20! ...FUCK THAT!

So I came home in a bad mood (I hate wasting gas) and decided just to watch something I already have...when I decided to post on here...and happened to come across my new favorite discovery that had me laughing super hard. That, and tea, bring me to a fantastic mood :D

My favorite so far?



For whatever reason, the word 'nom' cracks me up to no end. Seriously. Say it, and I'll be giggling like mad.

XD

I'm off to find more lolcats, and to finish re-reading Sunshine by Robin McKinley. Cheers!

xxoo

Man I am so tired/happy/sleepy/in-a-weird-mood. I'm hungry, but I'm not. I am craving popcorn like CRAZY, but guess what I don't have in my house?

You guess it. Popcorn.

Maybe I can bribe my brother to buy me some. If he's still out and about.

Spring Break thus far has been exactly what I wanted it to be. Quiet, slow, and without much bother. I might do homework tomorrow though, so that I'm not scrambling to catch up on Sunday. But only my stat homework, I have random studying to do that can wait for next week.

So yeah...I went and saw Inkheart yesterday, and today I spent most of my day playing Mass Effect. I forgot how much I love that game, and the next one has been announced :D Only bad part? I will more than likely be in Japan once it does come out. Damn eh? Bioware is probably one of my all-time favorite video game companies. They have never let me down. And they have another game coming out somtime soon, but I can't remember the name or what it's about XD But I know it will be epic!!

Alrighty I think I'm going to go watch Ghost Hunters...it's been a while since I saw it. That, or a movie. We'll see :)


xxoo

SPRING BREAK!!! -dances madly-

Finally! I accidentally missed my only class this morning...I stayed out late late late last night, and overslept. But I ended up staying home almost all day reading Kim Harrison and listening to music. However, my Skullcandy ear bud headphones died :( I'd had them for a while...not quite sure how long. The paint had chipped a lot (due to daily use and tumbling around my various bags) and they were starting to die, but today was their last day. So I went to Staples and got new ones, light blue this time :D I also picked up another Kim Harrison book as well as the new Franz Ferdinand album. It's nice that my favorite band finally has a new CD :)

Well I'd better go, I'm going to see Twilight (again) tonight...not for the midnight release (way too ridiculous) but in theaters still. Much better experience in my opinion. And nothing tomorrow but video games, reading, and rest!


xxoo

Only two more days of class (though I shouldn't count Friday, since I only have one class in the morning) but it feels like forever. I desperately need spring break. For rest, and forgetting that I have responsibilities. Sometimes it would be nice to be able to put life on hold for a bit, til you're rested enough to come back.

Euughh.

On another note, I've started figuring out my schedule for next semester. It looks like I'm going to cram eighteen hours this time (I'm currently taking seventeen). I desperately want to graduate on time, but at this point it still looks like I'm going to have one extra semester--though it will be an extremely laid-back one. I'll be taking marketing, business law, Japanese, BCIS, and two honors courses. I'm going to check over it again and maybe change it a bit (like not taking two honors courses at the same time...) before registration in April.

Anyways. I've got some astronomy homework I'm going to work on, so that I'm not cramming it all tomorrow. I've got an exam and I didn't study. Last time, I didn't need to, so hopefully that's the same for this time. Honestly, at this point, I'm too tired to care.

Hope everyone had a safe and fun St Patrick's Day :)


xxoo

Man, sometimes I really would like to know why it is that people make such blatantly stupid decisions. Or, have the stupidest reasons for doing what they do.

GAHHHHH. It's so frustrating!!

But I won't go into specifics. Suffice it to say, that this is part of the reason why I'm reluctant to meet or talk to people my age. And, I've become more cynical in actually finding truly intelligent people--which is not to say I'm a genius, but at least I can provide valid reasons with actual backing power. I believe in things that have validity.

Ahhh. Anyways...

My Japanese exam today semi kicked my butt. I didn't study as much as I should have, but I guess I'll be alright. I tend to be over critical in that sense ;) I should probably get back to finishing my homework. Four more days til freedom...

xxoo

I've been listening to far too much Eddie Izzard lately XD

But anyways!

I'm terrible at keeping consistent posts, but I shall try harder. School continues to eat up my time; in fact I am putting off finishing some homework...my German skills are lacking and it's difficult to write more intellectual pieces when you have to look up the proper (or fitting) word. But over all, it's going well. I've made the Dean's List at my university, and I was invited (and accepted) into the Gold Key International Honour Society. So academically I am doing fantastic :)

I've also been working on getting my art skills up, so here's a link to my deviant-art, but specifically to my newest drawing: Faith, from Mirror's Edge. Hope you like :) Add me to deviant-art if you wish!

Ahh well back to the homework once again...Spring Break's in a week, which is terribly exciting, and I might get a puppy soon :D We shall see!!


xxoo

I've finally gotten around to getting an LJ account!

Buuuut this post won't be very long, as I ought to go sleep now.

I figured I would write something though XD I've got work tomorrow, so bed time!


xxoo